It’s occurred to me that over the last year so much has happened that I don’t want to remember. The last year has been a roller coaster of peaks and valleys. Most of which has been an internal struggle for me, as I always pictured myself as someone who was fairly put together, however as the days unraveled in the year 2014, it became painfully obvious that I was on a search to find myself, again.

Having a few years of marriage under my belt I found myself searching for the individual that I thought I was. Somewhere along the way I realized that I am not what I wanted to be, I am not who I wanted to be, and I’m not doing things the way I wanted to do. And after much thinking I realized that… it’s okay.
It isn’t necessary to be who you wanted to be, or do what you wanted to do because somewhere along the line, life takes you for the ride that life is and I realize that in life has a plan for me. It takes a lot for me to admit I’m not in control, because if you know me, you know that I am a total control freak I need to plan crap out of everything.

So as I close out the year 2014 I want to admit that I am not in control and my life is uncertain and I know that the next year will be a whole new ball game of challenges.

But I am feeling optimistic.

This year has shown me so many things I am fortunate to have in my life, I have a beautiful family, an amazing husband who pulls out all the stops to make me laugh every single day… I have so many blessings that Allah has dropped into my life this year, that although it has been a challenging year for my personal growth, I cannot forget the happiness.

So many good things are going to grace us in 2015. I am excited. I am nervous. But most of all, I’m ready.

I wish all of us a fantastic new year! May all our hopes and dreams become a reality this coming year.